What do i do about .?

I was d when I was 18, by a guy I knew very well. I tried to talk to people about it, but everyone told me I was lying and I wanted it. I had only had before this happened twice. I have been trying to work on myself to feel ok, but when I was started to feel more like myself,... I went out for drinks with my roomie and a friend of hers, I ended up pucking drunk within a short while and we took a cab home. I ended up ping out and woke up to my roomies friend asking me if he should *** in me or not... I was freaked out and super wasted still. I told him not to *** in me. I ped back out. I came to agian at some point and went out to the patio and smoked a cig. i dont remember anything other than that. until I woke up in the morning, when he was leaving,... he gave me his number and asked me if i wanted a ride to my car... I told him i was still drunk. I ended up talking to the guy about a week later and he told me he didnt know i was still drunk. i had started talking to him. I believed him. we ended up getting into a relationship which lasted about 8 months and then he ended it by startin to ignore me and such. I never told him i was d before and im just, feeling like an idiot. i guess my problem was it couldnt happen the first time, youre in denial and when it happened agian i couldnt deal with the idea of it. i just, wanted someone and feel so stupid now. I need to find a place to talk and something.